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I wonder why it always has to hurt

For every blessing that you have to learn

I won't forget what you did to me

How you showed me things

I wish I'd never see

But I was stupid

And you broke me down

I'll never be the same again

(Thank You - Simple Plan)

Until my heart stops beating.

-

Venho tentando encontrar motivos pra continuar... pra não acabar logo isso. Mas está difícil. 

Suas palavras pesam demais sobre mim, eu quase não consigo respirar. 

Pra cada acerto você me aponta dez falhas. Não sei se você não vê, ou se finge que não vê..

Eu não sei de onde tenho arranjado forças pra continuar, só sei que elas estão se esgotando. 

É que chega uma hora que não existem mais lágrimas ou tristeza. Você fica simplesmente indiferente a tudo. Morre por dentro.

E é assim que você me faz sentir. Um ser inútil e desprezível. 

Eu costumava querer te fazer se orgulhar mim. Mas você conseguiu me fazer acreditar que sou incapaz. Não vejo motivos pra continuar. Não vejo sentido. Não sinto como se você se importasse.

Por trás deste sorriso que, vez ou outra exibo , escondem-se lágrimas de sangue e um coração vazio. 

Meu interior está frio... e a cada dia esfria mais. Está ficando  tão frio que quase é incapaz de sentir.

Até se tornar inerte...

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Hey mom look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to the plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change
I try not to think about the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

_

It's the tearing sound of love-notes
Drowning out these gray stained windows
And the view outside is sterile
And I'm only two cubes down
I'll photocopy all the things that we could be
If you took the time to notice me
But you can't now, I don't blame you
And it's not your fault that no one ever does

...
And they might fill your place

A temporary stand-in for your face
This happens all the time
And I can't help but think I'll die alone

...

So I'll spend my time with strangers
A condition and it's terminal
In this water-cooler romance
And its coming to a close
We could be in the park and dancing by a tree

Kicking over blades we see
Or a dark beach with a black view
...

Sometimes I think I'll die alone
Think I'd love to die alone

(Cubicles)

"Until the end, until this pool of blood."

-
"But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of... "
(Demolition Lovers)

You're a fake.

Achei que certos tipos de pessoas só existissem em novelas.. 

Estava enganada. Completamente enganada.

Certos... comportamentos existem na vida real. 

 

Manipular, enganar, mentir, dissimular, trair, ser ruim(no sentido literal da palavra), viver uma farsa, SER uma farça.Ganância, egoísmo, luxúria... Isto lhe parece familiar? Um vilão talvez? Pois é.

E acredite, tudo isso em uma só pessoa. 

Só lamento. Por mim, por ter sido ingênua demais. E a você, por ser uma farsa.

One.

Is it getting better?
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame
(...)

Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without
(...)

Well, it's too late, tonight,
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to carry each other
(...)

Did I ask too much, more than a lot?
You gave me nothing, now it's all I got
We're one, but we're not the same.
Well, we hurt each other, then we do it again.

You say:
Love is a temple, love a higher law
Love is a temple, love the higher law
You ask me to enter, but then you make me crawl
And I can't keep holding on to what you got
When all you got is hurt.

One love, one blood
One life you got to do what you should.
One life with each other: sisters, brothers.
One life, but we're not the same.
We get to carry each other

(One - U2)